I know. It doesn't make sense, I know that. But I'm too close to it, right now. I lost you, and then I was here. The whole thing -- I feel like it's still bleeding.

It's why I said yes. I was hoping for a chance to do something right, and -- [He leans so their shoulders are touching, resting his head against the top of Viktor's head. More contact than he's initiated or asked for before, but so so needed right now.] And there you were. Like none of it ever happened.