[...She supposes she needed to answer questions like this at some point. Mei sighs, scratching at her temple as she tries to put it into words.]

...It didn't feel too much different there, amazingly enough -- just that I had to do what work I was asked. Though it certainly felt lonelier.

[Being the only one directly opposing Kevin in spite of being on the same side as him certainly didn't help, but... a handful of people she met there only made it worse.]

Whatever bad things I ended up doing weren't on their orders. If anything... they were things that were supposed to be in my control, but I messed up at the last moment.

[She still sees those Herrschers' faces in her nightmares, sometimes.]